The Only Exception

I swore that I would never sing of love if it does not exist.

But darling you are the only exception.

A few years back, I started to blog. The purpose of me blogging was to:

a) Showcase my writings (eleh)

b) Express my feelings the only way I can which is through writing

Recently, I haven't been doing any of the two stated above, or if I even have ever done any of those two.

My english vocabulary is as narrow as the size of bacteria and I can feel all sorts of feelings stuck in between my arteries and veins.

So, starting from this post onwards, there will be more reasonable crapping compared to the usual nonsence rants the size of bird droppings.

Honestly, where do I stand in this community?

Even in high school, I feel left out and not able to fit in.

What will happen when I come out into the real working world?

Finding someone with the common interests will be much more harder what more a bunch of friends who you can hang out with?

The thing is, I don't know how to communicate, to make decisions on my own and to follow my heart.

I depend on people to make decisions, whether or not I need to follow my heart.

I need to be more independent, and not ask everyone for their opinion.

The only one who helped me at this was Buddy. 

I asked Buddy about something and if it was okay. Buddy said that if I thought it was okay, then it was okay.

That kinda restored some confidence in me, that I am capable to make the right decisions on my own. And even if I don't, I'd learn from the mistakes.

I plan to take one step at a time, to make myself more confident about the desicions I make, to make sure that I would never look back at it and regret. 

One thing that I'm sure is, with my friends, nothing is impossible. :)

PS: What a soppy post. :P