Anxiety Disorder

First up, I'm gonna try not to use song names as my titles and start off the post with lyrics. 

I just did that coz I always can't think of awesome titles so I just use lyrics instead. 

Brilliant eh?

Anyway (I hope I don't have to pay any copyright fees to use Regina's fav word), it's the holidays again. 

Back to slumping around the house doing nothing but watching tv and going online. 

I promised myself that I would do some studying but so far all I've done is open the cover of the workbook and took my pencil out. That's it.

 I'll probably do some today. I promise. :)

Btw, Regina used the word "anyway" for 4 times in less than 5 minutes while chatting with me.

The random thing I'm gonna talk rant about today is Lala Mui.

Which is an asian girl with regular emo hairstyle and a lala personality.

Can't really define the word "lala". :\

A caucasian emo would look something like this.

An Asian one, Aka. Lala, looks something like this.

It's a little weird that Asians want to look like caucasians and vice versa.

Anyway, that wasn't my point.

My point is that I'm a little intimidated by the Lalas.

I've seen videos of these people hitting and slapping other people, whether in the same group or not.

Whenever I walk past a group or even just one, I always tend to lower my head and avoid eye contact.

Sure, I've had a friend or two who are Lalas but I can't help but feel scared of them.

IMO, they are totally different from me.

I lack self confidence; they do not. Although this is true, I do not respect them for having a lot of confidence. Usually I would look up to a person who has confidence, but not in this case. They misuse their confidence and probably get their confidence from intimidating other people. So in other words, poeple like me, or maybe just me, help boost their confidence.

Frankly speaking, I don't know what I'm even blogging about. 

I gotta stop trying to blog seriously.

D: